The one that I'm demotivated.

I need to find something to make that "2 years old motivation" come back and kick my spirit back to work. Somehow...after few months in this new place, I feel so demotivated (I know demotivated is not an English word-already tried to search this word in the dictionary and I just can't find it---tried to Google it for conformation...after few sites and forums...yeah...demotivated/demotivation are not native English words but they are just some kind of slang...additive in English words. Anyhow...my first language is not English ^_^).

Back to the demotivation part of this post...well...the reason...maybe not too critical but it leaves stuff to me (to my heart...hehe).

When I analyze the situation, I realized it might come from the fact that I'm too used to be closed to my family and friends for these 19 months. Yes... I meet new peoples and make friends over here, but the feeling is not the same. FYI...For the past 27 years, I only get to live with my family only until I'm 12 years old. After that, I'm in boarding school for 5 years. Following that magnificent years, I'm in Petaling Jaya, pursuing my Matriculation certificate for 2 years and again after that, I'm away from my Family for 4 years, to pursue my Degree in Gombak. After staying with my family for 3 month or so... I continued my Masters in Australia and again, for 2 years I'm not with my family. After finishing my masters, finally I got to live with my family and it was stripped away just after 1 year and 7 months (19 months to be exact).

AS much as people told me that a new place is good...you can start fresh and gain new experience...yada...yada (yes it is...I couldn’t agree more), but I still believe that nothing compares if you can be close to your family and loved one. To my defence, my home town is somehow new to me because after I literally not live in it for almost 13 years, there are so many changes happened. New faces are emerging each and every day. So...factually, my hometown is somehow a staggering new place to me...more new people to meet...and new places to discover.

No pictrure for today? Will try to upload some tonight.